I do need to start writing again; it is good for the soul and memory.
This weekend I relaxed a lot going to the countryside and eating shrimps … :D
I don’t know where I have been I feel like part f me is missing.
I am very different from the girl who started blogging when she was in college. I wonder where is she now.
Many of such dreams are lost by now, or hidden somewhere I cant find them.
When did I become of what I swore I would never be? I don’t know.
Nevertheless, I don’t feel that bad. I feel ok.
My job …well, I certainly don’t feel like I am doing something that improves the World, but its not that bad either and it pays well.
Its funny, I was not thinking about open myself now that I wanted to write a short post, but ok.
We got the yearly profit gains from the company, they usually never pay a big amount but this year they did. A Friend got enough to be able to buy a car finally …
And me ..I didn’t get such a big amount, but I got enough. I talked to 2 friends, one got nothing for being outsourcing and other very little … I feel sad coz them but I saw they were greedy … this was an unexpected amount of money so we should be glad if we get some, even if it’s a little, no?
Then the green monster appeared in me … but I rapidly sent him back … It is just money. I don’t know since when money took more importance for me that it was in the past. Maybe since I had to pay my own bills and I see life is not cheap at all.
Anyway, for first time in my life. I do have a wish to buy a new car, but then I ask myself? What for? To show off to people that I don’t know and that they don’t know me? What do I need to prove? In my job, everybody would notice if you have a new car … even if its has all features or not. Why are we that way?
I wont fall in such game, and well, I don’t have enough money to buy the car I want …coz surely its not a cheap one, lol. Somehow, it is too much in my mind; maybe I will get it soon.
When did I become so shallow that my wish is a new car? Where did I get lost?
Well, in other things … this month June will be awakening, many things will be decided now … all or nothing, no time to lose.
And about my job, it is killing me … I dislike so much 2 of my coworkers, they just do everything more difficult to me .. pfff.. tho, my boss Jason never tells me anything even when those fuckers complain about me. I don’t know if that is good of bad. I must do things better, I have made mistake and I know it, but I cant stress that much because of that is not healthy. Once, I even got a nervous attack… I need to relax more… get drunk more, worry less, that’s my plan since 12th June… hehe.
What the hell if they fire me after all? :D
My close coworkers are good … Jimmy is gay … and a drama queen, he always talks about his problems and such, but OK, I don’t feel like talking about mine …since lately I don’t seem to have.
Newbie, Charlie, is a nice guy, but it seems he needs to focus more on doing his work well, or I will be in problems since I am the responsible of our department.
Anyway, things are good, we just need to improve soon… and well a Mexican guy won The voice Poland … maybe I can succeed too :D
Besos my dears!